It's been a rong rong time.

So couple of nights ago, my phone battery went flat after talking to my best friends. Jay was telling me about how he showed my pictures to this known M'sian photographer in KL. Both reckon I have potential right... and the guy said for me to give him a call when I drop by KL. Or to drop by KL to give him a call. Or something like that.

JJ said he's expensive.

And I said, I'm not paying.

What? I'm not paying!

I was talking to Sam about this on our way to Scott Pilgrim vs The World. He basically said exactly what I was feeling, except I couldn't think of the right words to verbalise it. Which was along the lines of, if he really truly, genuinely thought I had potential, and would like to see me out there fulfill my potential, he should be taking me under his photographer wings and offer his photography services to me for free and guide me through the tough model world and mentor me etc. Instead of charging me like everyone else. Because I'm not like everyone else. I'm not paying to get my pictures done, to get paid to get pictures done. If that makes sense.

You know I don't even think I'm that fantastic but really in a way this is a test of someone's authenticity. If you honestly do truly believe in me, you'd be offering yourself and make it a long term investment. Without question.

Like what my photographer friends did in KK :p

So, yeh. I'm not paying!

Anyway... Sam and I also talked about Miss Malaysia. He reckons, I shouldn't be limited to my parents' attitudes towards the pageant business. But that's kinda hard for me.. to do. I caused quite a frenzy last holidays. And I was only part of an interstate competition. Annndd.. I kinda gave them my word... that I'll never do such a thing again.

But after talking to Sam, I feel more inclined to join. For me, I'm not after the spotlight and fame. I'm not really as attracted to that part of the pageant, as I am to the opportunities beyond the runway and prizes. Last holidays, being in the competition, we did plenty of community work as part of the program. I'm hoping that by maybe joining Miss Malaysia, I can get back into that type of work and also train my networking skills for the future.

Previous pageant queens admitted to JJ that simply having titles on their resumes had helped them in their current careers. That would be a bonus for me! I think, it's not because of all the popularity (though there are still some factors of that I guess), but really because of the work experience and networking during the entire pageant.

The next selection would be in June apparently. I'd be done with my studies then.... I do actually have plans do some travelling after my graduation.... but if I'm taking up this challenge who knows, I might have the opportunity to travel anyway and get sponsored while doing so.

ZOMG. Hahaha. Guess I have to prepare my apologies for the parents again.

To friends reading this who have me on Facebook, don't mention anything about this on my wall please :p decision's not solid yet and I really don't want any interrogation from family members hahaha

Peace and love!