Hmm

So like, I know I blogged about studying awhile ago, guess what.. I haven't been studying.

I've become more and more calculative with going about it. I'd see that I have just one assignment due every week. Though its shitty they're due one after another, it's not as bad as having A FEW due in one week. (?). So I've been going through my assignments one by one. I guess, weekend by weekend. I can't research for two assignments at a time its just a mind fuck. Hahaha... But so far once I started, I don't stop until I finish, which is always a good thing!

Anyway, I was having a chat with my best friend the other day. He apparently has plans for me to join Miss Malaysia and something else which I forgot. To be honest, I wouldn't mind. I wouldn't mind going after the 30/20/10K prize. I sure have just as many buts as before... but hey, I went through it. I learnt enough from it to know I won't die from joining. And as for the talent round, I guess I could practice my piano skills. And play some shitty less-than-Grade-1 song (I stopped learning at Grade 1... didn't even bother to do the Grade 1 exam hahaa). I reckon playing an easy song perfectly is better than singing or dancing! Tried the dancing, EASY moves okay and I still managed to fuck it up.

Although I wouldn't mind the pageant pursue, I couldn't promise Jay a yes. That's because the future right now, just looks so bloody misty. Here's why. I'm doing my final year of psychology this year (bachelor), and:

- I don't know if this is my actual final year, seeing it's been quite a struggle to keep up.

- I don't know if I will actually start my job training in July. And if so, I don't know if it won't affect my studies enough (and vice versa) in that I will pass the year and still have my job intact after.

- If I do pass the year, and still have my job, how long will I stay in the job? And how can I fit Miss Malaysia in the calendar?

- If I do pass the year, and still have my job, and also able to join Miss Malaysia, when the fuck can I actually do my post-graduation travels?

I feel like the only way things could work out is if the July training got cancelled because there are not enough numbers. That would give me more time to fixate on my studies for the rest of the year and make sure I pass. That would also allow me to go back for holidays end of year PLUS the Vancouver visit PLUS the post-graduation travelling if I wanted PLUS Miss Malaysia.

But the thing is I WANT THIS JOB SO BADLY. I'm so afraid I'd have to choose in July. Should I just hope they tell me there aren't enough people for the July training that they'll post pone it to 2011? That could happen right? It's possible?

Not so happy :(

HR from Serco said I'll be missing too much if I attend my uni classess during the 5 week training period. So they're gonna set me in for the July intake, that's if, there are enough people for the July intake.

:(

I'm kinda upset cause I really really wanted to do it. I was ready to get out there and learn some hands on practical business, earn some money for myself, start my career and what not. Now I have to wait all over again until July... and its not even guaranteed that there'll be another training course then. And what if they forget about me?

:(

........... At least there's time for homework now? :/ I guess.

Ima so happy

What else can I say? :)

ABC News "Volcano Cloud Smother Europe" - by Rachel Brown

A huge plume of drifting ash from a volcanic eruption in Iceland has disrupted air traffic across much of northern and western Europe, stranding tens of thousands of air passengers.

The entire airspace in the UK, Norway, Denmark, Belgium and Sweden is closed, there are partial closures in France, and Finland has closed all airports except Helsinki-Vantaa. Flights to and from Australia have been cancelled, and thousands of other Europe-bound passengers from Asia and the United States have been left stranded.

The volcano began erupting on Wednesday (local time) for the second time in a month from below the Eyjafjallajokull glacier in the south of Iceland, and an Icelandic volcanologist says the eruption is growing more intense.

It is estimated that between 4,000 and 5,000 flights were affected on Thursday as a plume of grey ash up to 10 kilometres high blew across the Atlantic, closing major airports more than 2,100 kilometres away.

Volcanic ash contains tiny particles of glass and pulverised rock, which can melt in plane engines, causing a loss of power.

A number of flights between Australia and the UK have been cancelled or delayed due to the volcanic ash.

Qantas says it is not cancelling flights at this stage but says some planes that left Sydney and Melbourne last night are stranded in Singapore and Bangkok.

Qantas spokeswoman Olivia Wirth says people planning to travel to Europe or the United Kingdom should check the airline's website before heading to the airport.

It is the first time in living memory that a natural disaster has caused such a halt, a spokeswoman for Britain's National Air Traffic Service (NATS) says.

Meteorologists say the ash will dissipate as it travels over northern Europe and Russia.

But John Strickland, director of air transport consultancy JLS Consulting, sees possible broader hazards.

"Iceland sits right on one of the key routes between Europe and the USA and... depending on meteorological conditions it could also affect flights from Europe to Asia, so there are two big international flows which could be
affected by this," he said.

The European air safety organisation says the disruption, the biggest seen in the region, could last another two days, and a leading volcano expert says the ash could present intermittent problems to air traffic for six months if the eruption continues.

Even if the disruption is short lived, the financial impact on airlines could be significant, a consultant said.

The International Air Transport Association had said only days ago airlines were slowly coming out of recession.

The Association of British Insurers said volcanic eruptions were not always covered by travel insurance for cancellation and delay. But some airlines issued statements confirming they would refund fares or change flights.

Stranded passenger Andy Evans says airline staff at Stansted airport, north-east of London, told customers it could be closed until Sunday.

"People just don't know what to do," he said. "There are hundreds of people in the queues at the sales desks."

A spokesman at Heathrow, Europe's busiest airport, said 840 out of 1,250 flights on Thursday were affected, disrupting about 180,000 passengers.

More than 120,000 other passengers were affected at Gatwick, Stansted and Glasgow airports.

Scientists say the ash does not pose any health threat because it is at such a high altitude.

One consolation for stranded commuters is that there will be a vibrant sunset and purple moon, as the ash particles scatter the sunlight.

- ABC/Reuters

Guess how I first came to know about this. Not through TV news.... not through online news websites.

But through Facebook! lol

A few friends in Europe complained on FB about not travelling to some place and how "this volcano sucks". So I did the research!

I can imagine how this must suck for everyone, especially those who have planned their trips way early.

But I have to admit something......... I'm looking forward to photos of a "purple moon" and "vibrant sunset" :p

Pictures

I was looking through tagged photos of myself on Facebook.

And I came across this...

:)

I rike it.

I also like this one

I feel like my top makes me glow a bit... hhahah..

Studying

While shampooing my hair, I was thinking, do I really hate studying? I mean, why? When it comes down to doing research and writing up shit... Do I really hate it? Why do I hate it?

I actually don't. The only reason I hate it is because I know I can be doing something else that's less boring. Stress comes before and after doing my homework - Before, because I know what lies ahead and how much I have to do to get it finished. After, because, even though I did some homework, it's never really complete.. until literally the night before it's due. I also stress when I hit deadends. The thing about deadends... is that they are always temporary. I always pull through and think up something in the end, regardless of the quality. But everytime I hit a deadend, I look for distractions, until I feel motivated enough to start again. Once i start, and reach that deadend again, I procrastinate again.

It's so annoying! Why do I do that!? the fact that I pull through everytime shows that if I stick to it long enough, I'll be out of that deadend eventually. I shouldn't just quit everytime after being blocked by one.

Anyway, upon realising all this, I've decided to take a new approach to studying. I have to always remind myself that I don't actually hate studying. I like finding relevant information. I like knowing I'm contributing to my future by studying. I like knowing I'm growing and I like knowing I'm progressing. Most of all I like knowing I'm getting things done.

And what to do when I hit another deadend? Keep going! This is my self-promise. No quitting. If I ever feel like it, I'll remind myself I always think of something in the end so I might as well think up something straight away (no matter how many times I keep hitting myself with mental blocks).

I spent most of the weekend pondering to myself and reflecting before coming to this.... conclusion.... or whatever it's called. Sicne then I've been reminding myself that studying and doing homework will reward me and bring me closer to my life goals. And though I was no where close to my homework the past few days, I was excited to get back to it. And I did.

I'm not done with my homework or anything, but I thought I could take some time sharing this with you people :)