This halloween

I was Sam!

Well okay. No. In all honesty...... I didn't celebrate it. I didn't do anything Halloween related in fact. Except that I watched Ghost, wearing Sam's wife beater and pajama pants. (That's why I said I was Sam... you get it?)

Ghost was a pretty good oldish movie I have to say. Demi looked like a prepubescent boy, but storyline and suspense and humour were well delivered.

BY THE WAY.

I volunteered to be a friend's guinea pig for her beauty course. I found out (only after I said yes), that her treatment(s') gonna be about losing weight using their "machines". And, apparently, it also involves massages and being half naked!

What a win win! Massage and losing weight ahahah

By the way Jay.. you know who this friend is? It's Julma (our family friend who used to baby sit us)

She said though I'll be half naked it wouldn't be a problem anyway since she saw me fully naked before.

So true~

I'm excoited.

Nicki Minaj in Kanye West's "Monster"

Lyrics

Pull up in the monster
automobile gangster
with a bad b-tch that came from Sri Lanka
yeah I'm in that Tonka, colour of Willy Wonka
you could be the King but watch the Queen conquer
ok first things first I'll eat your brains
then I'mma start rocking gold teeth and fangs
cause that's what a muthaf-cking monster do
hairdresser from Milan, thats the monster do
monster Giuseppe heel that's the monster shoe
Young Money is the roster and the monster crew
and I'm all up all up all up in the bank with the funny face
and if I'm fake I aint notice cause my money aint
let me get this straight wait I'm the rookie
but my features and my shows ten times your pay?
50k for a verse, no album out!
yeah my money's so tall that my barbie's gotta climb it
hotter than a middle eastern climate
find it Tony Matterhorn dutty wine it
while it, nicki on them titties when I sign it
how these n-ggas so one-track minded
but really really I don't give a F-U-C-K
forget barbie f-ck nicki she's fake
she's on a diet but my pockets eating cheese cake
and I'll say bride of Chucky is Child's play
just killed another career it's a mild day
besides 'Ye they can't stand besides me
I think me, you and Am [Amber Rose] should menage friday
pink wig thick ass give em whip lash
I think big get cash make em blink fast
now look at what you just saw I think this is what you live for
aaaahhh, I'm a muthaf-cking monster!

Brownies

Have time to kill?

Seeking some comfort food?

Or just want to procrastinate?

This is one of the best things you can do.

Really.

And this is how you do it.

Have fun!

hdmi what

Double Negatives

What's with people using them??

"Not necessarily unproblematic"

"Highly unlikely to be unreliable"

Can't they just say "there may be some problems" and "it's fairly reliable" instead? :|

Grr.. maybe I'm just too slow!

My brother

Week after week, I complain about him.

Troughs after troughs, I boil because of his words.

But blood is still blood,

And I can't wait for him to see what I (with parents' money and with their permission) bought for him for his birthday!

Heeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I'm so happy cause I know he'll be IMPLODING with joy!

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I hope they know where they're heading.

I hope they know the consequences they're setting themselves up for.

I hope their future still seem bright for them.

I just hope they know.

"Total Eclipse of the Heart"

Pictures speak for themselves.

They don't need to be explicit to tell a story.

And yet, the obvious may not actually be an adequate presentation of the captured moment.

I saw many pictures today :)

Some of me, some of my loved ones.

I saw the picture of me and Sam, dressed up, matching colours, matching smiles.

I smile.

I saw pictures of Sam, Jono and their elder brother Ashley, when they were kids.

I smile. I imagined their childhood as if watching an old video recording. I could see their parents' love reflecting from their eyes. I could see competition.. mischief. Bliss.

I saw pictures of Milo, who is currently lost (we suspect stolen).

I smile. Milo's squinty eyes look past the camera.. staring straight at his owner, proudly, as she took the photo. He was on my lap, while I was on th driver's seat, parked of course, with his front paws perched on the steering wheel. Such small creature.. yet balls of steel. Unfortunately.

I saw pictures of Sam and his mother taken on his 21st birthday.

I smile. I remember the story she told us, about how much alcohol was wasted that day. I remember the story she told of her and Sam's father. Forever love, confirmed at age 17. I remember Jono, Sam and I sitting with their mom, chit chatting, before we went to bed. Which made me remember my mom. Because my siblings and I did the same.

I saw pictures of Sam and his previous love.

I blinked. I paused. Mixed feelings. But can you blame me?

I remember seeing the photo the first time. Saved the photo, looked for my best friend online, send the photo to him, and said "Jay! how hot is this mix?? She's mixed everything. Dutch, Indon, Indian etc etc I can't remember all". And Jay said, "She's okay, I guess. Who's the guy??!?"

I smile.

I remember seeing the same photo shortly after I got to know Sam, and remember feeling... confused, no, rather, curious. At this time, I was holidaying in Malaysia. This was also the same time I discovered Sam and Sam were no longer Facebook friends. Which made me even more curious. I never knew what happened between them (at that time). But from what I gathered in my few encounters with Sam, I knew, he rather not talk about it. And one thing I learnt from the past was, "letting nature take it's course", and by asking about his past.. especially after getting the vibe that I shouldn't ask, I believe is pushing nature.

I remember thinking about this shortly after I came back from holidays. And Sam and I had been dating for some weeks now. He had told me about his story. I listened. I cringed with him, I sighed with him, I laughed, I was in awe, I was speechless. I was touched. I remember, after knowing, and looking at the same photo again when I came across it... I smiled. I understood why the photos were still there. Just because something ended badly, didn't mean you had to regret the entire journey. I remember feeling so much more respect for Sam then.

Then, I remember coming across the same photo.. few days ago. I stared. And stared. And stared. Staaaaaaarrrredd. And my heart sank. And I start to sulk. Unlike previously, I looked at this photo as if I saw it the first time, as his girlfriend. I didn't like it. I shut the window immediately, and distracted myself.

It's funny how time can change the littlest things. Half a year ago, I hadn't seen Sam for 3 months and I couldn't care less. A month ago, I hadn't seen him for a week, and I was devastated. Like real emo.

:)

I shall now end with..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIRiZsDObrU

(Thanks Jono, for the perfect video recommendation/conclusion.)