I've done my case study.
It's a lousy piece of shit. But hey, at least there is still... shit. I can kinda enjoy my few days of holiday now.
Bad news
Group meeting later. nyerrghhh...
Another bad news
I haven't heard from the private hospital hey! what's goin on here??????? I thought I got the job!
Then again. I'll just wait. Like I said... enjoy my few days of holidays. Before I know it I'll have little time to do shit again.
Whatevssss. Gonna stay optimistic about the remaining week!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Pardon the whinge
Time’s pulling all sorts of tricks on me. There’s just one more year to go and I’ll be out of the studying scene. I can’t wait for it to be over, seriously. That said I feel like I need EXTRA time for my assignments and things. I need extra time to understand what the fuck I’m reading. I need extra time to learn the work I’ll be doing. I need extra time for myself, for reflection. I need extra time to calm down. I need extra time for friends. I just need time, yet I can’t wait for it to past!
People say we’ll miss this anxiety once we graduate, that we’ll want to go back to rushing assignments in before the due dates. I… actually do not see this in my future. Last year during the semester break month, I spend about 4 days a week in a café working my butt off. And I loved it. As the units for the next semester were unrelated to the previous one, there was nothing to worry about all month. No due dates. No research homework. No group meetings - Just the perfect balance of work, rest and play. Though I may have felt some sort of stress while working, normally it’s the kind of stress that ends after I sign off. I wasn’t in any managerial position so I needn’t worry about stocks and profits etc.
I loved getting paid and then spending the money on catching up/parting with friends, going out to dinners, and to the movies. I didn’t earn that much money but the money was enough to keep me comfortable. Now that I’m just an unemployed (soon employed) student, I can’t afford to do anything. I can’t look my friends whenever I want because I need to conserve fuel for going to uni and going to group meetings. I can’t just go out to dinner whenever I want because if I did I wouldn’t have enough money for lunch and breakfast.
It’s so hard to find the motivation when I can’t stop thinking about “back in the days of semester break”. I try to remind myself about the importance of achieving my goals and keeping to my self-promises. I try a lot. I tell myself - Life was never meant to be easy. I should just stop complaining and do what I have to do. Just suck it up and do it. Do it, and reward yourself. Do it, and help yourself.
Then I’ll hit some mental block while doing my assignment and I just get demotivated all over again. And then I’ll start cursing the course coordinator and bitch about why they made 4th year so bloody difficult.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
.
.
.
Inessa, no matter what. FINISH YOUR SHIT.
People say we’ll miss this anxiety once we graduate, that we’ll want to go back to rushing assignments in before the due dates. I… actually do not see this in my future. Last year during the semester break month, I spend about 4 days a week in a café working my butt off. And I loved it. As the units for the next semester were unrelated to the previous one, there was nothing to worry about all month. No due dates. No research homework. No group meetings - Just the perfect balance of work, rest and play. Though I may have felt some sort of stress while working, normally it’s the kind of stress that ends after I sign off. I wasn’t in any managerial position so I needn’t worry about stocks and profits etc.
I loved getting paid and then spending the money on catching up/parting with friends, going out to dinners, and to the movies. I didn’t earn that much money but the money was enough to keep me comfortable. Now that I’m just an unemployed (soon employed) student, I can’t afford to do anything. I can’t look my friends whenever I want because I need to conserve fuel for going to uni and going to group meetings. I can’t just go out to dinner whenever I want because if I did I wouldn’t have enough money for lunch and breakfast.
It’s so hard to find the motivation when I can’t stop thinking about “back in the days of semester break”. I try to remind myself about the importance of achieving my goals and keeping to my self-promises. I try a lot. I tell myself - Life was never meant to be easy. I should just stop complaining and do what I have to do. Just suck it up and do it. Do it, and reward yourself. Do it, and help yourself.
Then I’ll hit some mental block while doing my assignment and I just get demotivated all over again. And then I’ll start cursing the course coordinator and bitch about why they made 4th year so bloody difficult.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
.
.
.
Inessa, no matter what. FINISH YOUR SHIT.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I have to do homework today :(
I really don't want to.
But I have to :( Eventhough I'm on my 2 weeks break.
I have group meetings I have to prepare for, a community project to start off, and assignments to complete while possibly having 3 shifts a week.
I don't understand why they put so much on the 4th year program. Dissertation (case study assignment, literature review, research proposal etc), Counselling (case study and exam) and Community (field work project - program design, presentation and written report). What the fuck right? I swear if I fail this year, the next time I do it I'm doing it part time.
MAFAKA.
UNHAPPY!
But I have to :( Eventhough I'm on my 2 weeks break.
I have group meetings I have to prepare for, a community project to start off, and assignments to complete while possibly having 3 shifts a week.
I don't understand why they put so much on the 4th year program. Dissertation (case study assignment, literature review, research proposal etc), Counselling (case study and exam) and Community (field work project - program design, presentation and written report). What the fuck right? I swear if I fail this year, the next time I do it I'm doing it part time.
MAFAKA.
UNHAPPY!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Out of unemployment by next week!
Surprise surprise. I will start a job by next week... as a nursing assistant at a rehab hospital!
This was one of the jobs I applied for early this year but have never heard from till yesterday. I was told to come in for an interview today and I did and here I am blogging about it straight after.
Its funny how things can end up, I applied for Serco (the one where I had to go through the assessment and interview) and then got worried because though there will be paid training for 4 weeks, $18 an hour, I don't know if being there everyday of the week for 4 weeks is compulsory. But look at that! 18 an hour... being paid just to LEARN. After the training, your pay increases to $28 an hour. This opportunity is just too good to pass if I get offered you know? But as I just mentioned, I was worried because doing the training will definitely affect my uni commitments. Apart from tutorials I can't miss, I have responsibilities as a group member to be there and contribute weekly at the meetings.
I am now TRUTHFULLY HOPING, Serco doesn't offer me a position. But if they do, I'm going to try my luck negotiating about the training. If they could compromise with me, e.g. I'm allowed to miss some days of the training, I'll do the it and will ask for just 1 shift a week. It's a new operation though, I doubt they will "need" me that much, considering there were so many people at the assessment centre.
But hey, whatever :) I don't need them either (not now anyway).
*squeals* I'm excited for this nursing assistant gig. Really! The private hospital looks great, small and indeed very private. The staff are close knit and supportive and professional but so friendly.
Oh happy day!
This was one of the jobs I applied for early this year but have never heard from till yesterday. I was told to come in for an interview today and I did and here I am blogging about it straight after.
Its funny how things can end up, I applied for Serco (the one where I had to go through the assessment and interview) and then got worried because though there will be paid training for 4 weeks, $18 an hour, I don't know if being there everyday of the week for 4 weeks is compulsory. But look at that! 18 an hour... being paid just to LEARN. After the training, your pay increases to $28 an hour. This opportunity is just too good to pass if I get offered you know? But as I just mentioned, I was worried because doing the training will definitely affect my uni commitments. Apart from tutorials I can't miss, I have responsibilities as a group member to be there and contribute weekly at the meetings.
I am now TRUTHFULLY HOPING, Serco doesn't offer me a position. But if they do, I'm going to try my luck negotiating about the training. If they could compromise with me, e.g. I'm allowed to miss some days of the training, I'll do the it and will ask for just 1 shift a week. It's a new operation though, I doubt they will "need" me that much, considering there were so many people at the assessment centre.
But hey, whatever :) I don't need them either (not now anyway).
*squeals* I'm excited for this nursing assistant gig. Really! The private hospital looks great, small and indeed very private. The staff are close knit and supportive and professional but so friendly.
Oh happy day!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Wife Being The Bread Winner
Sam asked me this question last night and I found it so difficult to answer:
If you're a married woman, would you be okay with it if your husband earns less than you? I.e. You're the bread winner of the family.
Be honest now!
I really couldnt answer. I mean objectively speaking, it shouldn't matter. But I know myself. Even on the dating scene, I would expect the boy to pay for me SOMEtimes. I just like to be taken care of. That said... I KNOW, when I have money, I don't care. Let me explain.
Being in Australia, I consider myself to be very poor. And always broke. Hence, dating a guy, I would like to be taken care of (sometimes). However, being in Malaysia, the level of "socioeconomic status" at which I live in is a bit higher than where I am at as student in Australia therefore I have, and can spend a LOT more money (parents' of course). I know for a fact when I have money I am generous. Guy, girl, friend, new friend, I am willing to pay for things if I feel like it.
Now tying back to marriage. If I end up being a loaded mother fucker... I don't think I'd care if my husband is the lower income earner OR even a househusband. I would care if he's not doing anything and bumming around. Given that he doesn't bum but works very hard whatever hes doing (be it stay-home-dad or plumming), I can safely say I would not care.
But if both of us are struggling just to be comfortable, and cannot afford to go out at restaurants for dinner twice a month or something, then I would have a problem if my husband earns less than me. It's weird right? I mean.. I don't like "struggling", and for my husband to not step up and relief some of the pressure, I'd be very very disturbed.
This just brought me to another point. IF say we're not struggling but not loaded either, i.e. happily middle class, HAPPILY, and both my husband and I are happy with our careers even though he's the lower income earner, I think I would be okay with it too. I guess it all comes down to how at peace I am with the situation. Any kind of added stress would increase the tension and affect how I deal with being the bread winner.
With unlimited wealth, that's no/less stress (hypothetically speaking compared to the others).
Husband being the lower income earner? No problem.
Struggling financially, higher stress.
Husband being hte lower income earner? PROBLEM.
Happy, happy whatever it is, less/no stress.
Husband being the lower in come earner? No problem.
I also thought about how my parents would think, and definitely, regardless of the situation... they will NOT be happy that my husband is not the bread winner. Typical Chinese :)
Anyway.
I wonder what guys think of this? Men, if your wife earns more money than you would it bother you?
Here's a scenario Sam gave me for guys to think about:
If you're out with your mates and everyone's paying for their meal. Are you okay that everyone knows the money you're taking out from your wallet, is actually your wife's money?
If you're a married woman, would you be okay with it if your husband earns less than you? I.e. You're the bread winner of the family.
Be honest now!
I really couldnt answer. I mean objectively speaking, it shouldn't matter. But I know myself. Even on the dating scene, I would expect the boy to pay for me SOMEtimes. I just like to be taken care of. That said... I KNOW, when I have money, I don't care. Let me explain.
Being in Australia, I consider myself to be very poor. And always broke. Hence, dating a guy, I would like to be taken care of (sometimes). However, being in Malaysia, the level of "socioeconomic status" at which I live in is a bit higher than where I am at as student in Australia therefore I have, and can spend a LOT more money (parents' of course). I know for a fact when I have money I am generous. Guy, girl, friend, new friend, I am willing to pay for things if I feel like it.
Now tying back to marriage. If I end up being a loaded mother fucker... I don't think I'd care if my husband is the lower income earner OR even a househusband. I would care if he's not doing anything and bumming around. Given that he doesn't bum but works very hard whatever hes doing (be it stay-home-dad or plumming), I can safely say I would not care.
But if both of us are struggling just to be comfortable, and cannot afford to go out at restaurants for dinner twice a month or something, then I would have a problem if my husband earns less than me. It's weird right? I mean.. I don't like "struggling", and for my husband to not step up and relief some of the pressure, I'd be very very disturbed.
This just brought me to another point. IF say we're not struggling but not loaded either, i.e. happily middle class, HAPPILY, and both my husband and I are happy with our careers even though he's the lower income earner, I think I would be okay with it too. I guess it all comes down to how at peace I am with the situation. Any kind of added stress would increase the tension and affect how I deal with being the bread winner.
With unlimited wealth, that's no/less stress (hypothetically speaking compared to the others).
Husband being the lower income earner? No problem.
Struggling financially, higher stress.
Husband being hte lower income earner? PROBLEM.
Happy, happy whatever it is, less/no stress.
Husband being the lower in come earner? No problem.
I also thought about how my parents would think, and definitely, regardless of the situation... they will NOT be happy that my husband is not the bread winner. Typical Chinese :)
Anyway.
I wonder what guys think of this? Men, if your wife earns more money than you would it bother you?
Here's a scenario Sam gave me for guys to think about:
If you're out with your mates and everyone's paying for their meal. Are you okay that everyone knows the money you're taking out from your wallet, is actually your wife's money?
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