Happiness doesn't exist on the far side of distant mountains. It is within you, yourself. Not you, however, sitting in idle passivity. It is to be found in the vibrant dynamism of your own life as you struggle to challenge and overcome one obstacle after another, as you clamber up a perilous ridge in pursuit of that which lies beyond.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Quote of the day
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I miss Sam :((((((((
But we'll Skype tomorrow?
Thank God he's only on holiday. I can't imagine doing this for more than a month! But its such poor timing though cause winter's actually starting to get cold. And it feels extra cold without him :(((
And I miss my friends too :(
And Rett is in Melbourne :(
But at least Iris is staying with us now so she's there to keep my company :)
We even watched Sex and the City 2 at the movies the other night! though I haven't even watched the first one. haha. OH well. An easy-to-watch and entertaining movie.
I'm heading to bed now so more updates later people~
Thank God he's only on holiday. I can't imagine doing this for more than a month! But its such poor timing though cause winter's actually starting to get cold. And it feels extra cold without him :(((
And I miss my friends too :(
And Rett is in Melbourne :(
But at least Iris is staying with us now so she's there to keep my company :)
We even watched Sex and the City 2 at the movies the other night! though I haven't even watched the first one. haha. OH well. An easy-to-watch and entertaining movie.
I'm heading to bed now so more updates later people~
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
M
I saw a translated Japanese proverb today. It was framed up at where we had our training. It said “Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare”.
When I read it, the first thing that came to mind, was a good friend of mine. One I rarely see, because of distance, because of time, and of course because I’m not that loaded to fly over to Europe to see her whenever I wanted (which is pretty much how I feel like every time I talk to her). She’s one of the most amazing people I know, and one you never need to try to get along with. Our friendship was effortless. We connected immediately. Sounds funny I know, but there are some people who are just hard to get along with at first, but you end up close with them anyway much later.
Anyway, M, you’re probably the reason I got so disappointed with PLC. Let me explain people. Before going there, I knew she went to that school. So when I met her, and knowing I was going to be in the same school, I thought everyone I meet, will be just like her! Easy going and open-minded.
Boy was I wrong!
Nevertheless, even before going to PLC, I just knew there will never be another M. Till now, I still believe that.
M, I apologise for what I said before. It wasn’t my place at all to tell you to get back with P. However, I still strongly believe, you are capable of achieving everything you want to achieve. To be independent, to be inspiring. You already got this! It just hasn’t been obvious to YOU because you just don’t believe it. The proverb above can be interpreted in so many ways, but it reminded me of you because when you spoke to me, you were so clear with knowing what needed to be done, how it had to be done, and why you needed what you want… you were very clear, except… for when you begin to add detail to the plan, which threw you off track, and you became overwhelmed with actually making these thoughts into reality.
I know we can’t help it when sometimes millions of things rush to our head when we start to think or plan things. And every time it happens, little do we know it, it discourages us more and more to think about it and to get started at all. But the littlest things we do to make it clearer, make a huge difference. Like blogging? c: Actually, anything that presents to you physically of what you initially thought of, HELPS. Whatever this may be. A post-it. A drawing. A picture of someone. It just helps whenever you can see your goals in front of you in actual material. These don’t necessarily have to represent your ultimate life goals. These can just be plans for the next day. Like I said, littlest things, huge difference. We may not know be aware of it but actually doing what we actually planned to do motivates us to do a lot more.
Someone once told me, sometimes to step up you step sideways. It doesn’t matter if nothing is happening. But the effort still makes a huge difference. Also, people don’t think this is important but always acknowledge the things you do for yourself and recognise it whether you have tried doing what you planned to do. M, I don’t need to be in front of you, to know that you’re not as aware of what goes on when you’re doing something for yourself, compared to how you feel when you’re alone. Don’t get the wrong idea, what I’m saying is that you’re very in-tuned to your emotions and your feelings but when you’re out at school or when you’re doing something, you don’t really think about how you’re feeling then and most importantly, how... what you’re doing is STILL doing something to reach your dreams. All I’m asking for is to start being aware when you’re at school or doing an assignment. Look inwards and think about how you’re on your way, actively remind yourself, that what you’re currently doing is getting you closer to what you want. In the end, no matter what the outcome is, doing nothing... is the only limit.
Another line I love is, “courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm”. What is there to be enthusiastic about? Everything! The present, the future, the known, the unknown. Knowing and believing you’ll reach your dreams without actually knowing how to get there, but to remind yourself anyway that you’re on your way. And be patient. You may not see the changes you wanted to occur, and you may still feel lost some days, but while you’re trying things... trust me... just keep going and have faith.
M, like P said, you bright up people’s lives. You’re already inspiring people without even knowing it. You got it. You have it. Push yourself... and have fun doing it.
When we spoke the last time, I was tongue tied even though I had so much to say. I hope you know that I’m always here, wherever you are. And I’m glad you’re feeling more and more yourself again (looking at your blog c:). Embrace this and nurture yourself okayyyyyy??
I miss you and you’re always in my prayers.
I hope the skies clear up for you soon c:
When I read it, the first thing that came to mind, was a good friend of mine. One I rarely see, because of distance, because of time, and of course because I’m not that loaded to fly over to Europe to see her whenever I wanted (which is pretty much how I feel like every time I talk to her). She’s one of the most amazing people I know, and one you never need to try to get along with. Our friendship was effortless. We connected immediately. Sounds funny I know, but there are some people who are just hard to get along with at first, but you end up close with them anyway much later.
Anyway, M, you’re probably the reason I got so disappointed with PLC. Let me explain people. Before going there, I knew she went to that school. So when I met her, and knowing I was going to be in the same school, I thought everyone I meet, will be just like her! Easy going and open-minded.
Boy was I wrong!
Nevertheless, even before going to PLC, I just knew there will never be another M. Till now, I still believe that.
M, I apologise for what I said before. It wasn’t my place at all to tell you to get back with P. However, I still strongly believe, you are capable of achieving everything you want to achieve. To be independent, to be inspiring. You already got this! It just hasn’t been obvious to YOU because you just don’t believe it. The proverb above can be interpreted in so many ways, but it reminded me of you because when you spoke to me, you were so clear with knowing what needed to be done, how it had to be done, and why you needed what you want… you were very clear, except… for when you begin to add detail to the plan, which threw you off track, and you became overwhelmed with actually making these thoughts into reality.
I know we can’t help it when sometimes millions of things rush to our head when we start to think or plan things. And every time it happens, little do we know it, it discourages us more and more to think about it and to get started at all. But the littlest things we do to make it clearer, make a huge difference. Like blogging? c: Actually, anything that presents to you physically of what you initially thought of, HELPS. Whatever this may be. A post-it. A drawing. A picture of someone. It just helps whenever you can see your goals in front of you in actual material. These don’t necessarily have to represent your ultimate life goals. These can just be plans for the next day. Like I said, littlest things, huge difference. We may not know be aware of it but actually doing what we actually planned to do motivates us to do a lot more.
Someone once told me, sometimes to step up you step sideways. It doesn’t matter if nothing is happening. But the effort still makes a huge difference. Also, people don’t think this is important but always acknowledge the things you do for yourself and recognise it whether you have tried doing what you planned to do. M, I don’t need to be in front of you, to know that you’re not as aware of what goes on when you’re doing something for yourself, compared to how you feel when you’re alone. Don’t get the wrong idea, what I’m saying is that you’re very in-tuned to your emotions and your feelings but when you’re out at school or when you’re doing something, you don’t really think about how you’re feeling then and most importantly, how... what you’re doing is STILL doing something to reach your dreams. All I’m asking for is to start being aware when you’re at school or doing an assignment. Look inwards and think about how you’re on your way, actively remind yourself, that what you’re currently doing is getting you closer to what you want. In the end, no matter what the outcome is, doing nothing... is the only limit.
Another line I love is, “courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm”. What is there to be enthusiastic about? Everything! The present, the future, the known, the unknown. Knowing and believing you’ll reach your dreams without actually knowing how to get there, but to remind yourself anyway that you’re on your way. And be patient. You may not see the changes you wanted to occur, and you may still feel lost some days, but while you’re trying things... trust me... just keep going and have faith.
M, like P said, you bright up people’s lives. You’re already inspiring people without even knowing it. You got it. You have it. Push yourself... and have fun doing it.
When we spoke the last time, I was tongue tied even though I had so much to say. I hope you know that I’m always here, wherever you are. And I’m glad you’re feeling more and more yourself again (looking at your blog c:). Embrace this and nurture yourself okayyyyyy??
I miss you and you’re always in my prayers.
I hope the skies clear up for you soon c:
Saturday, June 19, 2010
And it finally TRULY begins!
It's starting.
A friend of mine is engaged! Cheryl K. is the first person I know engaged who is my age, and is directly a friend of mine (i.e. not someone I met through another friend or sibling). We used to go to the same high school and though we're not that close I'm still really stoked for her :D
This actually reminded me about how my family friends and I back home would have discussions about marriage during the holidays, mostly debating who would be married off/engaged first. (I never actually thought about my non-family friends! hahaha..) We'd guess that Evelyn would prolly get engaged first among the G-word crew. And last or never possibly Jay hahahaha. Just cause of legal issues of course. Now I'm guessing who's next.
I reckon................... the couple who is most likely to get engaged next..... is................... Ja+Fran.............. or Lucas+Sarah :D
Don't ask me why! It's just the vibe I get!
Anyway, I said it's starting/beginning because we/kids of my generation are reaching that milestone already. From young we know this was coming! It's just hard for me to believe still. Sometimes I still can't believe how I came to study in university. This was never in my thoughts or expectation to pursue uni.. while growing up, but it happened. As a kid, I'd think only the smartest people go to uni, and that uni will be like the American colleges on tv - Large fields with plenty of white people... sitting on the grass or under a tree. Studying. And/or socialising. And then having crazy parties.
Then one January I got sent to boarding school overseas and before I knew it I was filling out applications to universities because everyone was (supposed to be?) doing it. Same with driving too btw. Growing up, I never had a single vision of me driving. At all. When my parents thought it was time for me to learn, I was scared and didn't want to do it. Told my parents I could do with public transport.
Now, I have my own car. I drive everyday. and I go to uni. Friends have even graduated or are graduating... and actually already getting engaged. It's bizarre... but it's reality I guess.
Now I wonder who's going to be the first to have kids :p
For me I think this life business is really really hard. Like, I REALLY want to be an active energetic grandparent one day who will see her own grandkids go through puberty and pass on advice etc, buttt... that would mean I'll have to have kids around 25. And I'd like to do this traditionally, meaning, marriage first. SO. That would mean marriage will be before 25.
Oh God.
And this is just marriage. What about my career? As it is I'm having so much trouble deciding what to do during end of year holidays and what to do next year in general. I don't even know if I'm finishing up my education with a Bachelor degree or something greater... just hate this uncertainty.
Now with all that said..... I'm going to follow MY mother's advice, and just, "Let nature take it's course". I don't know when or how my life's gonna turn out after this year. But... things will unfold... there's no doubt about it. I mean, life is happening whether you'd like it to pause or not. Whatever's to come... will come. Before I know it, I'll be 75 and sitting in KYC... drinking Milo Ping with JJ... and talking about dentures and kids having no respect anymore. Hahah..
Maaaaaaaan.... we're actually growing up.
Shit just got real yo.
A friend of mine is engaged! Cheryl K. is the first person I know engaged who is my age, and is directly a friend of mine (i.e. not someone I met through another friend or sibling). We used to go to the same high school and though we're not that close I'm still really stoked for her :D
This actually reminded me about how my family friends and I back home would have discussions about marriage during the holidays, mostly debating who would be married off/engaged first. (I never actually thought about my non-family friends! hahaha..) We'd guess that Evelyn would prolly get engaged first among the G-word crew. And last or never possibly Jay hahahaha. Just cause of legal issues of course. Now I'm guessing who's next.
I reckon................... the couple who is most likely to get engaged next..... is................... Ja+Fran.............. or Lucas+Sarah :D
Don't ask me why! It's just the vibe I get!
Anyway, I said it's starting/beginning because we/kids of my generation are reaching that milestone already. From young we know this was coming! It's just hard for me to believe still. Sometimes I still can't believe how I came to study in university. This was never in my thoughts or expectation to pursue uni.. while growing up, but it happened. As a kid, I'd think only the smartest people go to uni, and that uni will be like the American colleges on tv - Large fields with plenty of white people... sitting on the grass or under a tree. Studying. And/or socialising. And then having crazy parties.
Then one January I got sent to boarding school overseas and before I knew it I was filling out applications to universities because everyone was (supposed to be?) doing it. Same with driving too btw. Growing up, I never had a single vision of me driving. At all. When my parents thought it was time for me to learn, I was scared and didn't want to do it. Told my parents I could do with public transport.
Now, I have my own car. I drive everyday. and I go to uni. Friends have even graduated or are graduating... and actually already getting engaged. It's bizarre... but it's reality I guess.
Now I wonder who's going to be the first to have kids :p
For me I think this life business is really really hard. Like, I REALLY want to be an active energetic grandparent one day who will see her own grandkids go through puberty and pass on advice etc, buttt... that would mean I'll have to have kids around 25. And I'd like to do this traditionally, meaning, marriage first. SO. That would mean marriage will be before 25.
Oh God.
And this is just marriage. What about my career? As it is I'm having so much trouble deciding what to do during end of year holidays and what to do next year in general. I don't even know if I'm finishing up my education with a Bachelor degree or something greater... just hate this uncertainty.
Now with all that said..... I'm going to follow MY mother's advice, and just, "Let nature take it's course". I don't know when or how my life's gonna turn out after this year. But... things will unfold... there's no doubt about it. I mean, life is happening whether you'd like it to pause or not. Whatever's to come... will come. Before I know it, I'll be 75 and sitting in KYC... drinking Milo Ping with JJ... and talking about dentures and kids having no respect anymore. Hahah..
Maaaaaaaan.... we're actually growing up.
Shit just got real yo.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Lunch break
Day 1 training today!
Suprisingly the stuff presented to us aren't extremely boring or that hard to comprehend. Even Managed to stay focused until a certain point towards the end where I was desperately needing a toilet break (Not to pee or poo but to let out a huge loud fart I knew I had no control over :p), and apparently we only have four weeks of training now instead of 5. Yes! Seriously. I cannot deal with wakin up at 7 everyday for five weeks.. I know that kind of lifestyle is inevitable anyway and its what happens when you become an adult but hey still a student here :p and I'll grow up when I graduate :)
Anyway. Right now I have about half an hour left on my lunch break and I just spent 18 bucks on fish and chips because I don't have cash on me and the hotel restaurant's got a $12 minimum to pay by card. Hmmph. And cbf going out to find an atm, get lunch and try beat traffic all over again.
Oh Shit. I need another toilet break. Toodly doo!
Suprisingly the stuff presented to us aren't extremely boring or that hard to comprehend. Even Managed to stay focused until a certain point towards the end where I was desperately needing a toilet break (Not to pee or poo but to let out a huge loud fart I knew I had no control over :p), and apparently we only have four weeks of training now instead of 5. Yes! Seriously. I cannot deal with wakin up at 7 everyday for five weeks.. I know that kind of lifestyle is inevitable anyway and its what happens when you become an adult but hey still a student here :p and I'll grow up when I graduate :)
Anyway. Right now I have about half an hour left on my lunch break and I just spent 18 bucks on fish and chips because I don't have cash on me and the hotel restaurant's got a $12 minimum to pay by card. Hmmph. And cbf going out to find an atm, get lunch and try beat traffic all over again.
Oh Shit. I need another toilet break. Toodly doo!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Lazy update
It's winter. It's cold. It's the end of semester.
It's time for home cooked chicken rice!
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Btw... I've been enjoying life a bit too much lately hence the lack of updates. hehehehe. The post-semester pre-exam study week has just been too good you know? Exams start the following week but I don't have one till the 22nd of June, which will be the only exam I have left. So since the time I handed in my last assignment, I have just been enjoying myself doing everything and nothing at the same time.
I'm not crazy enough to bolt myself down to study just yet! Also, the parents were just over last week. Such great timing that they arrived after I had done all my assignments :D and their trip was short but very sweet. In just 7 days, we cooked for them for all the nights they stayed in and also took them to the mid-year sales. It felt like ages since we last saw them so being with them was just awesome. And listening to mom's stories all over again? Just never gets old! I miss my parents already :/
Anyway, I wanna start preparing tonight's dinner. :D
More updates next time!
It's time for home cooked chicken rice!
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Btw... I've been enjoying life a bit too much lately hence the lack of updates. hehehehe. The post-semester pre-exam study week has just been too good you know? Exams start the following week but I don't have one till the 22nd of June, which will be the only exam I have left. So since the time I handed in my last assignment, I have just been enjoying myself doing everything and nothing at the same time.
I'm not crazy enough to bolt myself down to study just yet! Also, the parents were just over last week. Such great timing that they arrived after I had done all my assignments :D and their trip was short but very sweet. In just 7 days, we cooked for them for all the nights they stayed in and also took them to the mid-year sales. It felt like ages since we last saw them so being with them was just awesome. And listening to mom's stories all over again? Just never gets old! I miss my parents already :/
Anyway, I wanna start preparing tonight's dinner. :D
More updates next time!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Photos of friends' pets
They are SHOOOOOOOOO CUTEEE!!!!
This is Leopold
Marie's beautiful sausage dog puppy
and this is Milo
Iris' "tea-cup" sized chihuahua
My laptop can eat him!
I think I'll never ever get sad if I just have a dog. I hate being allergic to them :( I carry anti histamine with me whereever I go though.... ok so its more like I hate that my brother won't help me raise one if I'm willing to buy one! hahaha
This is Leopold
Marie's beautiful sausage dog puppy
and this is Milo
Iris' "tea-cup" sized chihuahua
My laptop can eat him!
I think I'll never ever get sad if I just have a dog. I hate being allergic to them :( I carry anti histamine with me whereever I go though.... ok so its more like I hate that my brother won't help me raise one if I'm willing to buy one! hahaha
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